Grad School was 7 years ago and I still have nightmares that I won’t graduate

I don’t know why but I have a recurring nightmare that I am still in grad school and that I am not going to graduate.  The reason is never the same…they vary from a small transgression (late for clinic) to serious (skipping classes.) They make me wake up in a panic, which was a feeling I remember from grad school…the “I’m pretty sure I’ve forgotten about a big assignment” feeling that used to gnaw at my insides. There have been times where I literally needed to look at my diploma for a moment when I woke after this nightmare and remind myself that I DID do it, I graduated and have a great job now.

Sometimes I think of the professor that told me that I was a nice girl but that I wasn’t quite “cut out” for grad school.  I think that helped me tho, I knew I could do it even if she wasn’t sure.

pretending to observe in grad school

pretending to observe in grad school

I’m not sure why I am thinking of this now, except that I am facing a pile of paperwork and reports.  Summer is coming up quickly, then I get to start another year. Screenings, assessments, therapy and meetings  Love it.

Do/Did you ever have a nightmare about grad school or is it only me?

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3 thoughts on “Grad School was 7 years ago and I still have nightmares that I won’t graduate

  1. I’ve found the most superb study partner – her mnemonics rock. Night before yesterday’s exam, I dreamt that she couldn’t make it into campus (Cue: Bridget Jones’s movie scene “All by Myself” ..)

  2. At 45, I just graduated from gradschool. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I’ve always been a pretty together person but i actually developed an anxiety disorder trying to juggle it all. There were times that I was so stressed out that I could no longer function. The relief of graduating is so wonderful and yet I know I will have nightmares for years to come.

I see you speak the language of awesome. Awesome.

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