Time flies when you’re sleep deprived

Yesterday Diego was a month old.  I toyed with the idea of pulling a Dooce and writing him a monthly letter but the odds are that I won’t keep up with it, plus it hardly seems fair since I didn’t do that for Cielo or Junior.

Behold my precious bundle of joy (at 5 am…the time he was born) as he turned 1 month old.

if only he hadn't moved his arm and covered his smile

I used to think baby smiles were just gas, but now I think he is just happy.  Happy or amused that he can keep his mom up all hours, whenever I’m so exhausted that I think I could just die he will smile or chortle-laugh in his sleep (or let out an adorable fart) and then I want like 10 more babies.  Thank god that feeling goes away or I’d end up with a reality show on TLC.  I’m so thankful Nehemias is an awesome husband and helps me so much…he cooks, does the dishes and forces me to nap with the baby. 

I can’t believe that Diego is already a month old.  It seemed like I would be pregnant forever and now it’s over and I have this wonderful, funny, adorable little person to take care of and treasure.  He has already added so much to our lives I can’t imagine if we hadn’t added on to our family.  I guess I am hard-wired to love big families tho, since I grew up in a house with 5 brothers and 2 sisters.  The noise and chaos feel natural…and as long as I can stay ahead of the mess I’m doing fine.

Obviously I am adjusting to my new schedule because I’ve found myself thinking about work lately, which hasn’t happened since June.  I’m not starting right away, but I think I may call my schools and book my first visits.  I hope that will get them organized so that when I go they are ready for me with signed permission slips and the like.   

Maybe the reason why I am thinking about work is that Wednesday is my first payday of this contract, and that it s for more than I am used to.   I’ve gone from a 80 day contract to a 100 day contract, so I am excited about that.  Sure it is spread amongst 5 schools, but prior to my services these schools were doing well to get one SLP visit a year.

I shall have  come back to this post later…I hear water escaping the tub, I must investigate.

Ok, so I am continually late to the party…

There’s no partylike a FORMSPRING PARTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!  **busts out the old school Kid n Play dance moves**

I made an account and am now trying to post the widget.

EDIT: I was trying to post the widget but I have since given up and just left the link in the sidebar.  I am hoping my beautiful cousin Creehawk, seriously that is her name  ^_^ will let me know what I’ve obviously done wrong.

Not a lot is happening today, other than that the little ones have cabin fever.  It is so wet outside that they haven’t gone outside to play, and are instead destroying my bedroom.  I will tidy it back up later when Diego sleeps (y’know, when I should be napping.)  Supper is almost ready and Nehemias should be back soon.  He headed to the rez to fire up his forge and do some metalwork.  (I am married to a blacksmith, and no he isn’t 60.)  Yesterday he got a call from someone who wants him to make a custom staircase for their new home.  We are both excited about this, as they seem to be (judging by the email she sent late last night.)  He went to meet with the people at their home (they are building a new home about 40 minutes away) and sfter he finished the meeting he continued on to the closest Wal-Mart to get more diapers and baby wipes.  As a joke I added nail polish to the list, and to my surprise he chose a colour for me.  I am excited to give myself a pedicure.

Cielo and Junior have adjusted very well to Diego.  I was worried they may be jealous or standoffish but they have surpassed my highest hopes.  They are nuts about Diego, and love to “help” and do things for him.  They are always fetching diapers/wipes, or throwing away “care packages (care packages is a cuter way to say soiled diapers.)

I tend to write rambly, verbose, stream-of-consciousness type posts.  I imagine they are hard to read, and possibly not that interesting.  Is it better to have every entry about a specific topic? (Duh, probably.)

 

 

Recent reflections and acquired wisdom

I’m so thankful that my husband learned English in his 20’s.  If he hadn’t we would not be here together in Canada and we wouldn’t have our beautiful family.  Actually it is quite amazing how much his English has improved in the 6 years we have been together…although I suppose he has had years of free speech therapy.
I have now realized that a shower can indeed be an acomplishment.  Putting on lotion is even better.
Laundry is more fun when the clothes are teeny tiny.  Nursing bras, towels and bedsheets…less fun.
My brother is a wonderful and wise man.  His first words when he saw me this morning were, “My god, you’ve lost a lot of weight!”  Isn’t he wonderful!  (I’m 32 pounds lighter than I was BEFORE I got pregnant.)  Apparently pregnancy is an awesome weight loss strategy…who knew?
 
Just when you think that you couldn’t possibly love a man more, he insists you get some much needed sleep while he watches all 3 kids…who are all under 4 by the way.

Cooking “bigger” than you need to is awesome because then you get leftovers and don’t have to cook later.  (As an aside, I am totally patting myself on the back for everything I had prepared and stashed in my freezer.)

Twitter friends are amazing…the support, friendship and professional contacts I have made there are invaluable.

I’ve learned that if I do not immediately write about something, the odds are that it will indeed NOT get written about.  (If there was a lazy blogger award I would totally win it.)

Watching Cielo and Junior kiss Diego without prompting warms my heart.  I also cannot believe how quickly they adapted to their new baby brother, they are always trying to help with the baby.  They are super protective already and can’t stop talking about how cute he is.

my boys

my girl and her "baby brudder"

Miracles DO happen…my daughter has not willingly sat for a portrait photo in over 2 years.  I have a few pictures of her in tears and with red eyes to show her later…but now I am waiting for Sept 9 so I can pick up our family pictures.  She is smiling and posing in these pictures.  I am SO EXCITED.  All those candles I lit were TOTALLY WORTH IT! (Ok I’m kidding, I’m a lapsed Catholic so no actual candles were lit in the name of photography.)

her old pic attitude

Professional organizations CAN be involved with their members.  I received a care package in the mail from CASLPA after Diego’s birth.  There was something in there for everyone in my family.

Diego's Official CASLPA diaper bag

 Junior claimed the CASLPA brochure that came in the package.  I think my son is going to be a Speech Pathologist…this brings me great joy!

Jr reading his SLP brochure

he claimed this as his own "book"

Buzz Lightyear was abandoned for the brochure

It still hasn't gotten old...

Sweet SLP dreams

Go Diego Go! (a belated “tweet” baby story)

     Considering my baby had his 2 week check up over a week ago, this post is coming to you late.  I will try to remember as much as I can and share my
Diego’s birth story. 

I was originally scheduled to go in for an induction at 9 am August 12, 2010.  This really had me nervous because I had gone into labor naturally at 40 weeks with both of my older children.  (Also, due to the Cholestasis I was being induced 2 weeks early.)  By Wednesday I was pretty anxious…just one more sleep and I would be heading in to the hospital.  Cielo and Junior were going to sleep over at my parent’s house Wednesday night so we could get an early start to the hospital because it is an hour away. 

Around 4 in the afternoon I got a call from my obstetrician asking if I would like to come in that evening around 9pm for my induction.  (There were no inductions scheduled for that evening and at that time there were no other ladies in labor.)  After conferring with my husband we decided to head in early.  After a quick call to my mom to confirm the change in plans I double checked my hospital bag and packed a bag for Cielo and Junior.  I can’t even explain how excited I was…and I was shocked by how calm I felt.  I decided to go through with my plan of live tweeting labor. 

 

I didn’t mention it to my husband but I had begun feeling contractions around 3 in the afternoon (so I’m glad I got called in early)… 

When you live an hour away from the nearest hospital that delivers babies you feel EVERY bump in the road during contractions.

We arrived at the hospital, got checked in and headed upstairs to the maternity ward.  I was so excited because i thought to myself, “the next time I ride in the car I will have 3 children.”  It is funny that I dressed in a cute outfit only to change into the extremely glamorous and sexy hospital gown.  I decided to leave my bra on (I hate feeling unsupported) and had the panty/no panty discussion with my husband.  He suggested I leave them on, which I wanted to do…but I knew that we were getting to the no-panty portion of the evening.  (Like conception, but less fun.) 

Mama knows...

I was happy we got the big birthing room since I was the only mom in labor.  It had big comfy leather chairs, magazines, books, tv, dvd player, dvds, private bathroom and shower and the like.  We decided to settle in and await our little one…but then I realized I was hungry.  I suggested Nehemias run out and get himself something to eat and to grab me some Subway.  Naturally, he complied. 

I really was not enjoying all the monitors I was hooked up to…the NST seemed super tight and uncomfortable and I was already tired of getting my BP checked.  It was pretty fun tweeting and I was really enjoying responding to tweeple while I waited for the doctor to arrive.  (Particularly my SLPeeps) 

I admit i didn't check my numbers because I didn't want to know if I had been unfollowed

My Dr was a bit surprised to see me tweeting on my blackberry while I was in labor but he totally rolled with it.  After a quick check (80% effaced 4 cm dilated) he decided I didn’t need the insert induction stuff.  

gitch=panties

I had blood taken (OMG OW!! That nurse was brutal) and they started my iv antibiotics because I was GBS positive.  After looking at the monitors the doctor asked me if I felt the contractions (because I was holding a conversation) and I laughed.  I told him, “Yes I feel them but they aren’t horrible.”  The Dr suggested I try to get some rest and told me they were slowly going to start a drip to keep my labor going (in case the contractions stopped.)  He offered me something for pain and again reminded me that I could have an epidural whenever I thought I needed it.  I told him I was ok and thanked him for offering.  He left and told me he would be back when I had progressed a little more.  

I think my nurse thinks I'm nuts for putting my labor on the internet

So I was settled in…Nehemias came back with my sandwich and I ate it chewing twice as much as I usually do (in case I get sick).  I wasn’t able to finish my 6″ sandwich but it was GOOD.  He brought Tim Horton’s coffees for the nurses; which they loved.  he is such a thoughtful man.  It was kinda nice to smile when the nurses all came in to gush. 

I remember thinking how awesome the slushy/crushed ice machine is, and that I wished I had one at home.  Spent some time filling out paperwork with the nurse and also doing a survey (aimed at First Nations moms).  We talked about the states and my time in graduate school.  She seemed very interested in Speech Pathology and she got my email address so her daughter could talk to me about it.  (Haha I was in total recruiter mode.)  The nurse asked me if I needed anything for pain and I told her I was still fine. 

luckily i have twitter friends in all different time zones

I even had a “twitter baby shower” with @1BeautifulRenee, @REZ_woman and @dakotadoll.  YAY for social networking! 

this native was getting restless

I was happy that baby was safe but because of all the machines I couldn’t walk around as I labored (except on potty breaks.)  I focused on the positive and tweeted on through the night.  

so glad my nurse was nice

I’m proud my spelling and use of to/too was still good. 

boom chicky wow-wow

Things were starting to get intense.  I had told Nehemias to try get some rest and that I would wake him at go time.  I could tell Diego was getting closer and closer.  By the way…I HATE INTERNAL CHECKS!! I tell you, I was thankful for my family, my blackberry and the internet…these things kept me sane.  The contractions kept getting stronger and stronger, and closer together. 

it was getting serious up in there y'all (and by "there" I mean the room and not my uterus)

At this point I really wanted the nurse to stop offering me drugs.  She seemed to always offer them at the peak of a contraction so I was proud of myself for telling her I was fine.  Then she offered me gas and I started to laugh.  She then said Nitrous Oxide and I told her I had it when I had my wisdom teeth removed.  She asked if it hadn’t worked and I told her that I hadn’t even noticed when they took them out…but I still remained med free (except for antibiotic and the induction drip–which was already stopped.) 

Once this lady gets sick its GO TIME!!

The sound of me retching woke Nehemias so fast.  He jumped up and ran over to me as I struggled to sit up and stay in control of my stomach.  He brought me the garbage can and I puked used it.  (SO glad I had chewed my food extra well.)  The nurse came rushing in and saw me holding the can in my lap with my head hanging in it and I heard her call the doctor back.  

When he arrived he apologized for his hair and clothes  (my dr is a total metrosexual.)  He said the nurse told him he had to get here quick or miss the baby.  He offered me an epidural (which I declined) and other meds.  I jokingly told him that I’d take some vicodin to go and he laughed.  He was surprised that I could still tweet, Facebook and text.  After another painful internal check he said I was at 7 cm and my water was broken.  (That gush is so unladylike.) 

I typed this during a contraction when he announced my dilation. Everyone was shocked when I said, "gimme my blackberry!"

I asked for a mirror. Well, I thought I asked, apparently I demanded a mirror.  A second nurse said they didn’t have one and I said, “YES YOU DO I USED ONE WHEN I DELIVERED MY OTHER TWO CHILDREN IN THIS HOSPITAL!”  My original nurse was shocked because I had been so sweet and polite, my dr looked annoyed with the second nurse and told her to go find a mirror…NOW.  She returned with one minutes later and I thanked her and everyone else sweetly. 

Can I just say there is nothing like seeing your baby be born?  I don’t watch the whole time but it only seems fair, I mean everyone else gets to see.  I could see the top of Diego’s head and I could feel my eyes filling up watching him.   The bed I was on is pretty neat, I hadn’t even realized that the dr and nurses had put their rubber aprony things on over their scrubs while the bed converted to chair like status.  Motorized furniture is cool.  

Nehemias was amazing, he always knows exactly what I need from him when I’m laboring.  Diego’s head came out with my first push…and he was crying already.  My second push and he was out…and was he ever mad!!! The sound of your baby’s cry is the most beautiful thing in the world.  

as you can see it was a few minutes before I could get this posted

I was so exhilerated afterwards and so thankful to everyone I tweeted with on this journey.  In no particular order, thank you to: 

@BellzJourney @creehawk @melissacop @aweshumsauce @StutteringMe 

@iheartmyanthony @dakotadoll @PuppyMcGee @SLPTanya 

@albrechtjn @TammyOfsanik @namastebyday @LRJD @1BeautifulRenee 

@REZ_woman @fli_wife @JulietLD09 @The_Daver

@starsintheskies @RhiannanW @Miiiiu @MontanamarySLP @justTip 

@stutterdude @SHYOBI @KoltonMonte @wbahner @CASLPA @OCSLP 

@atomiclemonade @djhein70 @mom2cassnnat @amazing_flora @RezNDNGirl 

 I have the best twitter friends ever, trust me if you need great followers any and all of these wonderful people are highly recommended. 

I had been up all night but it was worth every second

Pain med free! **ROAWR**

Diego Zachary, born 5 am August 12, 2010 - 8 lbs 13 oz, 22" long

He was one day old here…haha I took him shopping in Walmart when he was brand new. 

As an aside I ended up not sleeping til like 9 am, but that is another story. 🙂

Pow Wows, Pregnancy and FREE ALCOHOL!!

Ok, I lied about the alcohol.

I meant to blog about the Pow Wow sooner but things got away from me.  In a word, it was amazing.  Seriously it was exactly what I needed.  I didn’t go to the first day because it was raining a bit and I wimped out…but I totally enjoyed Saturday and Sunday.  Was great to go out with my little family, get my kids out in their moccasins and just soak in the sights and sounds.  (Since the Pow Wow my kids haven’t worn anything but their moccs.)

Grand Entry (my brother snuck in with the dignitaries...well actually he is on council so he was supposed to be there)

Sometimes it is difficult finding a seat but we were lucky

2nd row from bottom (dad, mom, bro Wil, sis Lee, bro Chris, Junior and Cielo)

 Whenever I’m at a Pow Wow I’m reminded how much I miss it.  I think I’d like to dance again, but I need to get my regalia together.  (Regalia…as a kid I just called it my “outfit.”)  I definitely want my babies to dance so to set an example I think I will have to get back in the circle.

Ooh shiny

I think Junior would make a cute Chicken Dancer.  It seems to be the style he likes the most,  judging by his actions when they are dancing.

little flock of Prairie Chicken Dancers

Perhaps Cielo will dance fancy like her cousin

little niece

We all had a wonderful time at the Pow Wow although I didn’t find earrings that I wanted to buy…and I ended up not buying anything except for food.  I found an amazing bannock burger but Mission Awesome Indian Taco failed miserably.  I gave up after my first disappointment and made my own later…

nom nom nom

I have another OB appointment today.  I’m totally ready to have the baby, I’m getting a bit tired of all these doctor visits.  Plus, once the baby is born my Cholestasis should go away and I will no longer scratch like crazy.  I hate it when I see people looking at my scratched arms and legs.  I can’t even imagine what they would look like if I didn’t have my meds. 

We finally set up the bassinet – Cielo has a few toys in there for the baby (Buzz Lightyear and Woody.) I have the baby’s clothes sorted from my huge stash of baby clothes now that we know what we are expecting.  We are excited because this is our tie breaker…. 

IT’S A BOY!!!